We knew that we wouldn't be able to keep Lucy's smile forever... that her "forever" smile would come later... We just didn't know how much we'd love this one.
Oh sweet smile, we love you so! How lucky we are that we don't have to let all of it go... A thoughtful person pointed out to me, that most of it is in those blue sparkling eyes.
This is the smile that first shattered my heart and rearranged it into a new composition, one that holds more love.
This is the smile I waited so eagerly for.
This is the smile that rescued me from tears. Hers and my own.
This is the smile that shone like a sunbeam through storms of reflux pain.
This is the smile that convinces her sister, "she loves me!"
This is a unique smile, with its own exclamation point - our favourite way to punctuate a moment.
This is the smile that pulls me into the most ridiculous conversations.
This is the smile that makes 3:00 a.m. an OK time to be awake and chat.
This is the smile I will do anything to make appear.
This is the smile that has cheered me on as I think, for days on end, I will pump just this one last time for her.
This is the smile that makes my voice do that crazy thing that makes Daddy wince.
This is the smile that tells me, despite the struggle, she's more than OK.
This is the smile we are so sad to kiss goodbye.
This is the smile we will always remember.
We can't wait to love you and meet you, Forever Smile...
Our babe will be four weeks old, so now we're awaiting that first "real" smile (because right now she seems to smile now and then, but we still wonder...is that just gas?)...I hope you know how so many of us have fallen in love with Lucy's smile, too! I remember kissing Margot's chest before her heart surgery, and taking pictures to remember what she was like "before". Now her surgery scar is part of what we love, something she shows off to new friends, and we kiss it regularly because although at the time it broke our hearts to think of anyone cutting her skin, we are so thankful for the result.
ReplyDeleteBefore you know it, Lucy's new smile will be as familiar and loved as her "original"...
Oh, the tears that dripped on my lap as I read this post! Thinking of you, and wishing you all the best that tomorrow can bring. Looking forward to hearing that all went well and you're on your way through the next steps of your journey.
Hi there,
ReplyDeleteI follow your blog and Lucy's progress but haven't commented until now. My apologies :-). Lucy's birth coincided with the miscarriage of my twins and so I have a special place in my heart for her, I have enjoyed following your journey and my heart has ached for you and your family with all the difficulties, especially around feeding. There were a couple of posts that brought tears to my eyes when I thought of how frustratingly difficult it was for you to do something usually so simple and how hungry she was.
I am excited that the surgery will be a complete and total success and I am so hopeful that the little luxuries like eating and being comfortable will now come to little Lucy and she can become an even happier little gal.
You're very strong, you're writing is beautiful and I hope you know that even though people may not always say it or speak up, there are many people pulling for your family during this time and sending you love and comfort during her recovery.
Take good care. I look forward to reading all about the next step in Lucy's journey :-)